after 4 years... DISASTER

Sitting alone, i remembered it was the year 2013 when my health was at stake and promised myself to stay positive moving forward but this year, 2017, has given me so much to bear that i could no longer see the sunlight.  I had a lot of struggle when it comes to my career - from an over the top boss who really does not care a thing, a home helper who is so judgmental and conceited and a family that had been so dysfunctional and i don't even know if it does exist.

Under those circumstance that came, I have tried to meet both ends from maintaining an ancestral house that my mom left and maintaining my own life paying all bills, car mortgages and name it, bills that is a lot higher than my earnings.

It was really a bad year and hopefully this 2018 will bring me hope and light. but if it turns out to be another year of disaster, this will be the end of this blog as it has reached the endpoint of my life.

Calm me my Lord but never expect me to exist anymore, but to those who knows me, let me tell you this, do take care of my dogs...that is all there is to it.

I am leaving this life...this earthlings and this planet.

Deep within, i feel crushed...

Eternal peace hopefully would rest upon me...somehow, somewhere...

Just an insight

The last week of May of 2013 was a real hell for me.  I was in a total shock and panic.  I have never thought that discontinuing hypertensive meds will bring an unfortunate trail of bringing myself to the ER.  It was a hell of unfortunate events and my confidence and well being was greatly affected.

After having been exposed to the medical world, i soon decided to have a "NO SALT, NO PORK AND NO BEEF DIET." Although my primary physician told me to just stay away from pork and beef, i decided nothing less but do the no salt, no pork and no beef diet.

I was practically paranoid and depressed and after a series of diagnostic tests; from whole abdominal ultrasound, 2d echo, thyroid ultrasound, blood work, chemistries, and stress test, my headache remains at the back of my head.

My primary physician advised me to see an ophthalmologist so as an obedient patient, i went to have a check on my eyes. To my horror, the ophthalmologist pre diagnosed me of having a suspected glaucoma due to  a very high eye pressure. I was down, weary, and depressed after hearing those and was scheduled to have a series of tests to see if i do have glaucoma. After doing the test,  i went back and thank God, I was diagnosed of having an ocular hypertension due to my high blood pressure instead.

After three months, came August and because of depression, anxiety and lack of confidence, my hair became gray and almost white and yes, i look so old and aged so i decided to have my hair dyed but to my horror I reacted to the dye and i had hypersensitivity.

It took me a series of trip to the ER about four or five times and after a consult with a dermatologist, i am slightly well and on my way to full recovery.

After these health issues that i had since May of 2013, i decided to change my outlook in life and forget all the negativeness and anxieties. I want to live my life again as before. I want to be happy and i want to move on.

Happiness is a choice and i am making my own choice, to be happy that is why i am moving on.  I am saying goodbye to depression, anxiety, negativity, paranoia, and the ghosts within myself.

I am moving ON and it is a CHOICE!

PGT - The Verdict

So, Marcelito won....I just can't move on because in my heart Happy Feet is the real PGT season 2 winner. I think it is all luck for Marcelito because he already joined Talentadong Pinoy (TV-5) before PGT and obviously, he was not lucky but because of the influence of some people and just like what happened to Jovit but in fairness to Marcelito and sorry to Jovit, Marcelito is a more deserving winner.

As I am watching the finals on national TV, when the top 3, was announced, I was in great awe. Imagine, even Rico the Magician was not included!

PGT season 3....I don't think I would watch it again unless Ms. Kris Aquino will no longer be sitting on the judges arena.

My own movie review: In the Name of Love

I had so much regard for this movie especially it is an Olivia Lamasan film but i was not that satisfied with the plot and the story. I was bored for awhile because somehow, pacing was slow and seeing Aga Muhlach act like about 10 or 20 years younger than his stated age now is not a good idea at all while Angel Locsin's role is just right for her although her acting in this movie I guess wouldn't merit her for an award.

In short, i was disappointed with this movie. Reviews were good though that is why, i was able to convince myself to watch this in the theater and watching it on its third week i guess, reviews and news were true.

Angel should be given more challenging roles and i am sure that she can deliver. She is one of the finest actresses that the Philippines has and that given the right project and material, she will go places.

Aga Muhlach is Aga Muhlach, no questions about that but i don't think pairing him with our young stars is right.

With regard to Direk Olive, I know she still has what it takes to be the best! Hoping that she can do movies again like Minsan Minahal Kita, Madrasta, Hanggang Kailan Kita Mamahalin, Sana Maulit Muli and so on.

I'm Back

It has been almost 2 years since my last blog and i actually just stumbled upon my page here through my ever reliable psp that i do have a blog! good thing i did not forget my password. (that's the cool thing about me, i have the same passwords).

Anyway, 2 years had passed and nothing has really changed except that i am loving my new hobby, photography.

So again, i am here to stay..thank you blogger!

When I Met U

When I met u. This is my second review (unprofessionally, that is), for the second movie of my favorite, KC Concepcion and Richard Guiterrez.

I watched this last February 13, and yes, it did not disappoint me at all unlike their first movie, For the First Time.

For the most part, we can personally identify ourselves in the characters that are being portrayed in the movie. It came out naturally for KC and Richard and for most of the cast, especially that of Iya and Alfred.

It's a story of two people caught in the middle of real love but the thing is, they both have their respected partners.

All in all, Director Joel Lamangan proved his magic, a great director indeed!

Watch it and be in love over and over again. Kudos to KC and Richard and hoping that Star Cinema and GMA Films would give them more chances of being paired together because their chemistry is really something to look forward to, a loveteam to beat!!!

For The First Time - My Review

I watched this movie for the simple reason that I am a KC Concepcion admirer and fan. As I predicted, there is nothing really new about the movie except of course that Santorini is really a magnificent place and sight.

For the first part, I somehow enjoyed it but as the story comes half-way, it shifted from a comedy into a mellow drama and I wonder where could Candy Pangilinan be?

For the first time, seriously, is not a movie that I expected. There were so much hope for the stars of the movie but it is still raw. I don't really like it and if not only for KC, I would just wait for the movie to be released in DVD.