It was May 4, 2001. How can i possibly forget? It has been seven years since she passed away, since i last held her hand, saw her smile, touched her face, and kissed her lips...I still remembered how she looked at me that friday morning I last saw her..She was just staring at me and it beats the hell out of me. She was a great mom indeed and no one could ever replace her in my heart.
It has been seven years and yet everytime i think of her, everytime i look at her pictures, tears just keep pouring down my cheeks...*Sigh*i still miss her so much.
Life has never been easy since she left us...especially for me. I have learned life the hard way. I have been out in the cold, lost in the woods, and technically, i was not really living right. It took time for me, a very long time, that is, for me to realize that I have to get up and do something with my life, a slow realization that somehow seemed unreachable to face life's journeys. Life has to go on. No matter how painful, no matter how hard, no matter how rough the road may be, life has to go on.
Ma, (as i fondly call her) you are my star...you left a deep mark that will always occupy 101% of my heart. I took the courage of living life because I know this is the only way that you could be proud of me and even if you are no longer here, I know and I can feel that I have proven my worth as a person and even if still many of the people around me don't see whatever it is that I am doing right, i really don't care because I know, in my heart, you are still there who believes me.
Thank you Ma for making me the person I am now. You will always be with me until I too, will die.
NOTE: The picture was taken months before she died
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